A few weeks ago I was reading a book when I came across a few words which struck me with some serious weight. In the middle of the page were the words "know thyself." While I had definitely seen this before, it held a different meaning this time. A lot was going on at the time, (when isn't there a lot going on?) and it made me stop in my tracks and just stare. As I looked at the words, I was frozen, unable to move forward with the reading as if my brain was trying to tell me something. I sat there and slowly, unpeeled the meaning of those words for myself. Know thyself- a perfectly common phrase, kinda, but you know, like everyone knows who they are right? WRONG. And it struck me. Was I doing what I wanted to in life? Or was I doing what I could to get by? That bashed at me like the ocean tide on rocks. Each investigative attempt digging deeper to see if what I was thinking was 1.) true and 2.) honest. Who was I really and was I living my life according to who I really wanted to be? And if I wasn't, why? And was it too late to change? What if I wanted to change but couldn't? What if I tried, and failed and became homeless?
It's incredible how your brain can create dramatic, detailed and horrifying narratives of your life, hopes, and dreams and bring them crashing down in just a few seconds huh? The truth is, this question is one of the most POWERFUL and essential questions you can ask yourself. Honestly, it was impactful for me because it made me stop and realize, I'm not doing what I want. It made me realize that life had taken me for a ride, but that I needed to make an adjustment, (or many changes.)There's nothing wrong with acknowledging and addressing this,- and the issues that come with it. It might suck, but it's a lot better than being the guy who lives with regrets or unfulfilled dreams his whole life. Take time each month to analyze and adjust your life. If it isn't working then change it. People may question you, but chances are, they feel the same way but are too afraid even to perform that deep self-investigation.